|Thoughts on Approaching the End
As I have written my pancreatic cancer blog, over the course of the
past three years, while I have held out hope that there might be a
major miracle, there was the realization that this moment might come.
Most of what I see written about the end is from the caregivers'
perspective, since the patient is so often much too sick by this point
to have the energy to write anything. Besides, there are often
last-minute details which must be attended to. which take up all of the
patient's remaining time. In my case, however, the Lord has seen
fit to have me see the end coming before it is quite upon me, and to
allow me to not lose my mental acuity before now. So I do have a few
parting thoughts for anyone who has followed this adventure this far.
Cancer is a hard way to go, but there are a lot of other ways which
would be worse. So my body fails me, and quits. Well, that happens to
each one of us at some time, and in my case, I found out about it early
and have had the time to prepare both myself and those around me for
the changes. All of the paperwork has been taken care of, the finances
arranged, and the arrangements made. All of the earthly things are
done. However, the earthly part of this passage is not the one which
concerns most folks, it is what happens next. For many
people there is a lot of uncertainly, and even fear concerning their
own personal end.
Anyone who knows me knows that I wear my faith upon my sleeve. To know
me is to know that I love Jesus. He has sustained me through all of my
life, and now He is carrying me through my lowest valley. I have full
confidence that He will do exactly what He has promised, because I have
seen in my life that all of the time He has provided exactly what was
needed, and guided things along. Oh, I might not see it at the time,
but when looking back on each good time or hard time, I can see that
He has seen me through every time.
So now I am preparing to go off to my final reward. My future is
assured, not because of any goodness I might posses, but rather
because, in spite of my failings. Jesus paid the price for my sins at
the cross, and has forgiven every bit of it. He says that He has
separated my sins from me as far as the east is from the west. I go to
my reward, not in my own strength, but rather in His strength, because
He has done everything which was needful for me.
I know about Heaven only that which I have read in the Bible, and the
information is not something I understand fully. What I lack in
knowledge, though, I make up with absolute confidence that since Jesus
has been so good to me thus far, and since I know Him well by now, that
I have no worries about anyplace where He is in charge. With Him there
and in charge, I know it will be exactly right. I have made my choice,
and my choice is to live for Jesus, and to go live with Him forever.
But enough about my situation - what about you? Cancer is killing my
body right now, and I have but a little time left, but your time will
come soon enough. Are you ready? Today is the day! Now is the time of
salvation. Trust Jesus with your whole life. Give it all over to Him.
He is the best friend you could ever have.
August 10, 2007
My pancreatic cancer blog may be found here: http://diehlmartin.com/cancer.html
Diehl Martin passed away in
October 2007. If you need to contact someone, please contact Monica Martin.
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